Happy New Year 2008!

To the devil in disguise,

So much,
laughters,
tears,
fun...

So much,
Happened,
thick thin,
sweet sour,
joy pain...

So much,
shared,
anecdotes,
complaints,
gossips,
even meals.. :)

So much,
words,
not expressed,
yet you understand...

So much,
i need to say,
but can never,
ever sum up my gratitude,
I hope,
it is alright,
the best I can give,
is just 'Thank You'

For you are not only,
a friend in need,
nor a roommate Godsent,
not only,
my partner in crime,
nor the one spent hours on the phone with,

You are not only all that,
You are more than that,
a sis,
I never had.

:)
Happy New Year 2008!

From the real guardian angel.

Foolish dreams

I dont only want to keep striving to improve...
I want to build an empire

And it wont be my crown,
It is not the recognition,
It is not the money,
It is not only satisfaction.

It is for the world.
I want to give.

It is just my foolish dream.
But if it realises,
It is not only satisfaction,
it is worthwhile.

I want,
because I know,
I am more than what I am today.
Yes, you too.

**********

Godspeed.
Happy New Year 2008!!

3 days and 3 nights of McD brought forward

"Sometimes u hav 2 open ur eyes, bcos wat u hear is not always d truth,it only takes a person with good language 2 blind u.I hope u c dis bcos i don want 2 b d person 2 ruin ur friendship,bcos den im nt any diff 2.Take it frm me..ive been thru it 2.." -friendster shoutout.

I didnt wanna tell you yet, I only wanted to tell you very much later after everything ends.
I couldnt tell, not even now.. because then i'm just the same, wont i?
You didnt know what happened. You didnt know how much it ached.
You didnt know how much of silent tears i shed.You didnt know how much I hid from you.
You didnt know how much i tried to protect all of you. You didnt know how much i had to go through so that everyone can be friends, hoping that im strong enough to take it all in by myself. You didnt know why i chose not to tell. You didnt know the struggles i went through.

I hope you will see this, so that you can be aware. Because I really care.. Don't make up your mind too fast.. because it's very convincing i know,i dont blame you.. But if you're in my shoes, you will understand clearer than ever.

I know you're smart..
But i dont blame you for not seeing it now because i havent filled you in yet.
open your eyes.. dont listen to what people say.. try to see it from everyone's point of view. This is not just about the current issues, there are lots more.
Do you remember the times i tried to hint you?
Do you remember when I said we will always be there for you?
Do you remember when I said alot of things may not always be what it seems to be?
Do you remember when I said 'dont pity others bcos the pity will only fall back on you'?

Ask yourself, why didnt i wanna tell you? No.. she only knew about it only after a year. Imagine how much i have to go through by myself. Im glad i finally opened up to her,because without her i wouldnt have survived any longer. I told you i was good at acting happy. I told you maybe next time we can sit at McD and talk for 3 days 3 nights, do you remember that? :)

I dont want to play that game.. I dont like that game.. But the game has been on for more than a year now. You didnt know.. did you? I just wanted to protect you.. But i think this is all i can do for you now.. It must have been more logical for me to just tell you. But Im not that kinda person. If I tell you, then I cant keep the peace anymore when the truth is out. I thought I'll just give in for now. I thought I can be the guardian of u. At this point, we can only warn u.. I had no warnings back then..

Remember your goals. Do not let your mind wander too much. Study hard for your finals.. Because this was what happened to me back then.

Think. Ask why. Ask yourself more questions. What might have happened? Why did i choose to do all this? Do u remember the time you brokedown and lashed out, what did i tell you? Am I not the one you said is physically young, but mentally old?
Tho i am not :) Maybe it helps if you read all these through a couple of times. You might not be able to figure this one out yet, but this stops you from making up your mind too hastily ;)What's most important is your finals. That is a hint..

Lotsa love,
Youcantrustme

My EQ

Your Interpersonal Intelligence Score: 65%

Your Interpersonal Intelligence is High You are definitely a "people person." You enjoy spending time with others. You instinctively understand people, and you are both a good counsellor and mediator. However, there are definitely times when you've had enough. And that's when you cherish being alone.

How Does Your Interpersonal Intelligence Rate?

I should score lower :P

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal. You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign language

What Should You Major In?

Looks like i'm in huge trouble~~

Omigod

I managed to try all possible usernames and finally found the right one to log into my own account!!

For those who don't know yet, I've been 'locked' out of my own blogger account for i don't know how long redy cos i switched to the google account as requested blogger.com , but after a long break i somehow forgotten my username. So much so, after all the 'effort', i kinda gave up breaking into my account, hence lost the drive to blog again.

But I guess, this post is a good brand new start? :D hehe

p/s: my finals' round d corner. you won't be seeing me in a while. wish me luck!

At times..

At times.. I just feel really miserable.

I just feel like breaking down and screaming into my pillow.

After the sighs

I'm sure you guys are tired of hearing this d, but I have so much to blog about!!

and yet the next few weeks of visiting this blog left u with nothing.

After all those laments, and releasing my sighs, I can finally change the mood back to .. Terri?

Sigh out

SIGH...

There're 2 types of sighs. One out of relief. The other, disappointment.

My sigh however represents both of that.

FINALLY, my exam's over. *sigh*
AND, it was hell. *sigh*

Definitely have to resit most of it. *sigh*
I studied *sigh*
for bio *sigh*
I almost died making mind maps and notes for bio *sigh*
according to Ms Law's mindmaps *sigh*
I memorised bio *sigh*
Ms Law's mindmaps cannot be trusted *sigh*
I underestimated maths *sigh*
maths' supposed to be easy, so-we-all-thought *sigh*
physics & chem was nothing like all those past years we did *sigh*

To top it off

Core Maths 3

SIGH
let that be the icing of sighs
definitely more of disappointments

I'm a..

I'm supposed to go to bed a few hours ago. You will know why later.

This's another one of my what-i-did-today post.
So, what did i do today? hehe

Went to Connaught for dim sum breakfast, saw Ann Chee but she didn't see me. Then parents drove me over to my house in Connaught. Squeezed through the gap at the gate ( i think the gap's shrinking or something, most likely because of the rain *einsteinstare* ), pulled out my keys from my bag, and *gasp* they (people left in the house) padlocked the grill, with the new padlock which we found too mafan so we kinda decided not to use the padlock, so no-one duplicated the keys. Which only means I WAS LOCKED OUT.

Not to worry. Called Sab. Got Julie's number. Called Julie. Julie answered sleepily.

The next thing you know, I'm in the house! It's magic! Really leh, not blarfing you.

Back to the story.. grab unwanted stuffs I packed last Friday, passed them to my parents, and waved them off.

Started doing my crap <- not shit. Terri's crap = Craft . Add them to your vocabulary =D. Crap of the day: Shiou Meng's belated birthday gift.

~Tokyo drift playing from laptop~

Mosquitoes started eating me up. Looked for mosquitoe repellent thingy that runs on electric. Pasang-ed it. And continued my crap.

Almost fainted because the room was too warm. Opened the window. Still warm. So took 5 for a drink.

Back up. Shed tears.

Hungry. Rummaged the fridge for food. Fried 2 eggs. Mosquitoes continued their feast. Makan telur.

Back up.
Watched funny videos.
Found a slideshow.
Shed tears again.

Cleaned up my space. Walked to the bus stand. Waited for an hour. Bus came. Took KTM. A group of girls stared at my kampung-like attire. Dad picked me up.

Back home. Complimented my bald dog (Roger) that it's fur is growing back again. Milo stayed beside me cos the neighbours were playing firecrackers.

Lesson no. 1: Once I'm back home, you can start fast forwarding everything.
So fast forward. *makan*critisizetvprogs*newspaper*mahathir*news*computer*

Lesson no. 2: I can do alot of things at home even at fast forward mode. But when my butt rests on the flattened cushioned chair infront of the computer...That's kinda the end of story for the rest of the day.

It's 3 am now. I have 5 hours to sleep before going off to Sg. Congkak for camp.
I haven't packed a single thing yet. Oh well, just throw in some clothes, blankie (since I don't know where's my sleeping bag), torchlight (might need to buy some batts), stationaries, Bible, songbook and some essentials.

I haven't bathed yet. I haven't brushed my teeth yet. And yes, I am still wearing the same attire I wore since morning.

Lesson no. 3: Terri's a real rat when she's back home.

Lesson ended. Any questions?